Of silence and disconnection

Ever felt you’re at a place where you do not belong? Say, a gathering where you are not acquainted with any of the attendees? That, I believe, is a common occurrence. Most people have been in such a situation at some point in their lives. In such a situation, a person usually does not expect to be addressed, and it’s not unusual for said person’s comments to go unnoticed or outright ignored, the person (being an outsider) naturally excluded. That sort of environment drives our hypothetical subject either into withdrawal or into asserting him or herself by means of discussion, arguments, antics or perhaps even aggression.

And then comes my particular case.

You see, dear readers, having grown up rather distanced from most social settings, I end up taking the place of our subject on most occasions that involve socialization. I usually find myself excluded from conversation, my comments blatantly ignored, even when speaking to family, and it’s not due to a lack of assertion or verbal skill, as I have always been able to talk myself into or out of any situation as circumstances require. Perhaps my particularly individualistic upbringing turned me into an incorrigible outsider, even in the most familiar ambience.

I believe this deserves more analysis.

A fascinating concept

I have recently come across a concept that I find quite interesting. It is named transhumanism. To be more than human, to improve ourselves through science and technology. I will research more on this current and its authors. Needless to say, the concept itself it quite alluring to me.

Long since

My dearest readers (if any). My most humble apologies for the wait to which you have been subjected. So, for the sake of your entertaintment, today I type without a purpose, to where the words and my mind may carry me.
Into eternity! (well, that may be a bit exagerated).
I find the concept of proportion fascinating. It's the human way of adapting everything to our level of perception. One might say a cat is small, yet the same cat is large in comparison to an ant, pretty much in the same way our planet is humongous, but minuscule when compared to the vast and trackless expanse of our infinite universe.
And speaking of universe...
The mind is an oxymoron in that it is infinite as the universe, but in turn quite limited. Our thoughts and perception are limited to that which we see, so simply imagining the distance between Earth and Mars is a difficult task. We may know the number of kilometers from here to la Planète Rouge, but it is hard, if not impossible to envision it. The study of physics requires a fair amount of abstraction that few are able to achieve.
Also on the topic of the mind, there is a song I'm particularly fond of, Equilibrium (by Tristania).
A part of the lyrics go like this:


I swim in you
In your dark rivers
Dive in your mind
Search for your monsters
Search for resistance
Sink into the mud
Dance in the halls of insanity
Yet madness is
Your highest deed
Your vanity


Lovely, is it not? O have I not danced those halls before, taking vain pride on my senseless dance.
On that note, dear readers, it is time for me to withdraw from this side of our magnificent global network. Please, do comment. I promise to write more often.