Ever felt you’re at a place where you do not belong? Say, a gathering where you are not acquainted with any of the attendees? That, I believe, is a common occurrence. Most people have been in such a situation at some point in their lives. In such a situation, a person usually does not expect to be addressed, and it’s not unusual for said person’s comments to go unnoticed or outright ignored, the person (being an outsider) naturally excluded. That sort of environment drives our hypothetical subject either into withdrawal or into asserting him or herself by means of discussion, arguments, antics or perhaps even aggression.
And then comes my particular case.
You see, dear readers, having grown up rather distanced from most social settings, I end up taking the place of our subject on most occasions that involve socialization. I usually find myself excluded from conversation, my comments blatantly ignored, even when speaking to family, and it’s not due to a lack of assertion or verbal skill, as I have always been able to talk myself into or out of any situation as circumstances require. Perhaps my particularly individualistic upbringing turned me into an incorrigible outsider, even in the most familiar ambience.
I believe this deserves more analysis.